There Used To Be A Country
Pretending
Fairy Tale
Numb
Meant to be
In My Shell
Watching You
Yellow Moon
Words are stupid
The House in the Woods
Guilty
The Same Moon

five blue (2005)

Did you know
Illusion
Be free
Where have you gone

moon

There Used To Be A Country

there used to be a country
a long time ago
which held loads of gold
in its hands

it got bored
by all its value
and thought about a way
to get rid of it

so it sent out letters
to the neighbouring countries
asking them if they were lacking gold
some said yes, some said no and some didn't know
what to say
some said yes, some said no and some didn't say
anything

it's said that our dear little wonderland
gave all the gold away
to the ones who were in need
and to those that just agreed

the story took a turn
and our beloved country
got poor
all at once
and forever

but its people
didn't mind at all
they still had everything
they needed anyhow

there used to be a country
a long time ago
which held loads of gold
in its hands
but no more
but no more
no, not anymore

Pretending

we make love
pretending we care
we look into each others eyes
but all we see isn't there

we laugh day and night
about absurd things we see
days fly by in seconds
it's so easy to think we're free

we're only acting
to live these days like our last
we simply fear
to take off our masks

I put my arms around you
but we don't seem to touch
we'd be happy forever
as long as nonsense made sense

we'd keep on shooting in the black
as if it didn't matter
and it doesn't in fact

what do we share?
what do we share?
what do we have in common anyway?

Fairy Tale

no strings attached
no worries echoing back
no return ticket in my pocket
i don’t intend to go back home

turn your head while i’m turning mine
the roads we’ve walked on we leave behind
we met in a time made for dreams
we turn regrets into pink steam

far away the sticky ground
far away your heavy loads
far away hard times pass by
we’ve found a home on cloud nine

love without storeys and floors
love without bricks and walls
love without ceilings but skies

turn your head while i’m turning mine
the roads we’ve walked on we leave behind
we met in a time made for dreams
no regrets

but to grasp this little fairy tale
read it slowly, read it backwards
before you start you’d better take a deep breath
the happy ending’s first

Numb

i don’t feel too alive
i’m in a numb state of mind
only you can understand
why i messed it up

now i’m walking on thin ice
wondering when it’s gonna break
i’d better turn around and slide back to you
at least to see that it’s too late

you’re still standing at the lakeshore
following my dizzy moves
the sun makes the surface crack

the second chance
left with the past
i would accept a third
and make it last

you’re still standing at the lakeshore
following my dizzy moves
the sun makes the surface crack

take your sense of humour and your smile
your soft hands, your bright shining eyes
neatly wrap them up
and send them my way
as long as the cold remains

Meant To Be

was it meant to be
to spend only this one night with you
you left this city for good
leaving me here with sore lips and your perfume

your cigarette’s still burning between my fingers
the plane took off just minutes ago
thick, fat raindrops trying to kill the glow
and i’m fighting to resist the cold

i may be standing here for days
while you’re leaving your old ways
our precious secret got cut in half
when you were waving goodbye

and if it’s god’s will that i’ll forget
the taste of your skin last night
i’m sure he’ll manage to put
the exact same spell on you as well

it won’t happen before i die
we won’t see each other’s eyes again
but why cry at the sky now
while rich memories still remain

i may be standing here for days
while you’re leaving your old ways
our precious secret got cut in half
when you were waving goodbye

and if it’s god’s will that i’ll forget
the taste of your skin last night
i’m sure he’ll manage to put
the exact same spell on you as well

In My Shell

the walls are built around me
and everyone is here
actors, singers, stars
the party’s host is me

i’ve got bands and pimps
gamblers, whores and shrimps
the biggest moulin rouge
you can ever think of

i own houses, cars and girls
i’ve got all the luxury in the world
all my wishes have come true
isn’t it fun being around me?

it’s happening here
in my shell
it’s happening

dearest friends
if all this turns out to be a bore
give me a minute
and i’ll be back with crime and war

i’ve got murder in all sorts of ways
slaughter, torture, slavery and rape
i beg your pardon?
what about love?

it’s happening here
in my shell
it’s happening

Watching You

you don’t know that i’m watching you
since you’ve shown up
i hope it will stay that way
just for a little while

you don’t seem to know
how stunning you look tonight
i keep on dreaming about you
as long as you’re around

do i need to kidnap you
to let you enter my world?
or will you return my look
or leave me gawping for tonight?

i’m not the type to buy you diamond rings
and i’m not a saint but for you i would pray
i’m not the one to buy you diamond rings
you shine much more than stone anyway

if you could see yourself
protecting all your mysteries
if i were you
i’d do it just the same

if you could see me now
you couldn’t help but laugh at me
a baffled stranger
rooted to the spot

i can feel your burning core
and your weeping heart
i’m the one for you
oh my god, she’s turning around
looking straight at me
tell me what to do now!
what am i going to do now?
what shall i do now?

i’m not the type to buy you diamond rings
and i’m not a saint but for you i would pray
i’m not the one to buy you diamond rings
you shine much more than stone anyway

Yellow Moon

she says goodbye to the yellow moon
she turns around and moves
slowly towards the entrance
of a different space in time

her picture changes colours
red to blue and green to black
her frames will remain golden
only to trick our minds

no one knew her to that day
she left without a sign
where she’s travelling to
stays her secret

a car crash in winter
the snow looks dirty
the roads are covered with ice
they couldn’t get her out alive

the picture changes colours
red to blue and green to black
the frames will remain golden
only to trick our minds

Words are stupid

i didn’t mean it that way
baby, please don’t go away
believe me i want you to stay
i hope you won’t walk away

words are stupid

those phoney bastards
cling to my mouth
they keep intruding
like maggots and worms

words are stupid

i didn’t want to send you away
oh how i wish i could pray
to prevent you from running away
darling, i need you to stay

words are stupid
yes, they are
gluey and gleeful

greedy and mean
stingy and pernisious

words are stupid
who do they think they are?
words are stupid

The House in the Woods

there’s a house in the woods
not many know it exists
i’m glad to know people who do

they say if they choose you
you won’t fail to walk by
your instincts won’t lead you astray

when you enter the lobby
someone pretty and nice
will show you the house and your room

it’s just an ordinary house
with ordinary people
instantly it feels like home

on the front page
of their colourful brochure
a crash-course in happiness

if you’re wealthy and willing
to stay here for a while
they suggest you to take it real slowly

of course i’m too impatient
so I pick crash-course 1
i can’t afford to live here too long

the next day when I start
they start smiling and say
’careful, you might feel a bit sick on the way’

i don’t care just go ahead
and give me that pill
what makes me sick
is in the bag i’ve taken along

but as usual i wake up
scratching my head
i think they’ve put a smile on my face

Guilty

he’s still sitting in the kitchen
unconciously moving his cigarette
to the ashtray and back to his lips
he’s watching the smoke eat up the air

he knows he shouldn’t have driven on
after the car had hit the kid
if he had stopped and walked back
he would’ve faced the fact

the sound of breaking bones
the smashing window
the scared look in her eyes

or was it a boy?

he quickly looked back
and he wanted to stop
he was quite sure he’d killed the kid

but his foot kept pushing down

but his foot kept pushing down

he drove on and on and on
fourty minutes lasting like a day
he made it home, parked the car
closed the door and felt blood on his hands

the sound of breaking bones
the smashing window
the scared look in her eyes
or was it a boy?

The Same Moon

back there are the special ones
over here the weak
behind me i see some heroes
opposite me the freaks

soon i may greet some strange ones
yesterday i met a queen
two days ago i got cursed
by a lad with too much self-esteem

but everyone of us after all
if short or fat or tall
looks at the same moon hanging there
above us all in the air

there are some guys
who are chronically nice
and there are the ones
who always start a fight

some people have become loony
more than a few like going to extremes
a bunch of us seems to struggle
others easily fulfill their dreams

but everyone of us after all
if short or fat or tall
looks at the same moon hanging there
above us all in the air

five blue (2005)

did you know

did you know
that I suffered the whole time with you
did you know
that I tried to deny all the fights
but the nights made my addiction to you linger on

do you know
I still miss all that which made it real
do you know
that my heart is still burning for you
but it seems the ashes will soon be blown away

once in a while when we meet on the street
before we start the usual small-talk
I see a spark flaring up in your eyes
from the life we used to share

I sometimes felt pretty betrayed
even when I let you drown in silence
I learned that love hides a portion of hate,
greed, sweet pain and fate

I want you to come back
and I know that you won't
come back, back, back
no, you will not come back to me

after a time when I've gone bald
and your beautiful hair has turned to grey
we might be wise enough
to appreciate the magic of those days

illusion

risk it, you might regret it
play with fire but be sure to touch it
the great escape is an illusion
do you think it's the only solution?

why leave all this to the past?
cutting all the bonds which would survive
stretching your limits till they're gone
that ain't how I function my friend

why do you think it's all an illusion?
why are you so sure it's meaningless?
your constant complaints 'bout our constitution
are we rusty screws in the machine?

now you're about to commit
you're old enough to decide on it
but still too young to get the meaning of this fight, boy
don't tell me later that I was right

be free

you're like an addiction to me
like smoking it seems to be
as soon as I light up a cigarette
I'm longing for the next

I finally wanna get rid
of being a junkie of nicotine
I'm addicted to you
I wanna be free

more than smoking once in a while
I need to share hours with you
but why not just meet when we feel like it?
I'm trying to be free

I wanna be free
leave me alone
get off the phone
and leave me alone
let me be
let me be free

to compare you to a smoke
is not what I wanna say
I'm close to being ashamed
of this thought of mine
but girl, seeing you so often
is like smoking too much
it gives me a headache
I'm getting used to your touch
it feels like being stuck in a golden cage
like being wounded, like losing my spirits
like being tied-up on a desert island
I'm almost drowning

I wanna be free
leave me alone
girl, I'm almost grown
I wanna be free
let me be free
oh, just let me be free
oh, can't you see
that I need to be free
let me be free
I wanna be free
oh, leave me alone

where have you gone

you were the one who made me feel
loved and cared for, you treated it as real
believe me it didn't just occur to me
that you're the only one for me

the nights we spent together
I didn't want the dawn to come
I wish you were here now, right by my side

the fire used to burn within me
it's still burning but now it feels so cold
I'm so afraid the flame will die out

why did you leave me
without even saying goodbye
you only looked deeply into my eyes, and off you went

I can't get to sleep during the night
in the day I walk around, searching
knowing that I won't find you anymore, anywhere