Wicked ways - 2011
Alone
Angst
Hold on
Doubts
All
Can you tell
Our big brother
Passer-by
Secrets
Wicked ways
You belong to me
Embracing the world
Wicked ways
Alone
the town is empty
grey, dirty, vast
people seem to have
vanished at last
no one told me
nobody told anyone anything
nothing in the news
no papers at hand
it used to be beautiful
I used to call it home
am I the only one left
in this big old town?
the shelves in the stores are empty
but not as empty as my words
why you’ve left stays a mystery
a huge puzzle mingled with the clouds
it used to be beautiful
I used to call it home
am I the only one left
in this big old town?
forgive me folks
for dozing off
if only I had known
that you guys were about to leave
I didn’t hear the sirens
nor did I feel the bombs
but why were you running away?
without waking me up?
you were all running away
it used to be beautiful
I used to call it home
am I the only one left
in this big old town?
Angst
it’s what happened two days ago
that’s just where we stand
those xenophobic shitheads
make things get out of hand
am I supposed to share
opinions I’ve never cared for
why should I? but it’s hard
when you can’t agree with your friends
anymore
the mess is here now
the mud is stark and thick
if we don’t communicate now
then say goodbye to mr. respect
the case isn’t lost yet
but still it’s clear who’s won
if they don’t calm down now
life around here won’t be fun
listen
dear friends, you know
I can’t drown, no I can’t drown
this angst of mine any longer
‘cause it knows how to swim well enough
Hold on
you’re walking up and down the corridor
like an animal in a cage
stop blaming yourself
it’s just fate, fate, fate
if destiny is divine
then fate must be evil
so hold on to your life
before it expires
you’ve made up your mind
the exit sign shines bright
slowly pushing down the handle
you are ready for the fight
if I told you ‘you will be alright‘
would you believe me?
‘you’re not alone, you’ll understand
even if you didn’t
you’re strong, hold on tight‘
if I told you ‘you will win the fight‘
would you believe me?
‘you’re not alone, you’ll understand
even if you didn’t
you’re strong, hold on tight‘
Doubts
‘good evening mr. blue,
how do you do?‘
‘evening mr. doubt
what can I do for you?‘
‘I‘d like to ask you for a favour
could you spare a dime?‘
‘I’m so sorry, but I’ve got guests
please come back tomorrow
do you mind?‘
‘ah, I see
who could that possibly be?‘
‘why would you want to know?
it’s none of your business at all!‘
‘well, is it someone I know?
don’t worry, I’m going to leave
before dawn
‘it’s just mr. gossip and mrs. rumour
I don’t think you’ve heard of them‘
‘but of course I have!
we’re best friends!
like brother and sister
please, let me in!‘
‘do what you please
but would you mind keeping a distance?
you haven’t shown up for years
and I didn’t really miss you!‘
‘don’t worry my friend
I’ll be as humble as I can
just prove to be a good host
and I promise I’ll set you free!‘
‘do what you please
but would you mind keeping a distance?
you haven’t shown up for years
and I didn’t really miss you!‘
All
this friend of mine‘s got it all
kind of twice, if you want
I‘m not too sure after all
he can‘t be serious, somehow
seven kids plus two wives
a great job, six cars, what a hive!
he wasn‘t joking, that was clear
when he said: ‘I‘m going to get married
again!‘
I‘m glad I‘m not in his shoes
because
for once I‘m not trying to turn the tables
‘cause what I‘ve got is what I need
I tried to make both ends meet
but I didn‘t really succeed
I have a wife and she‘s just great
and a little boy who flew away
I‘ve got a crappy car
and sort of a job so far
no money to spend on bling-blings
nor any cash for diamond rings
for once I don‘t feel like trading one
damn thing
‘cause all I‘ve got is more than I need
for once I‘m not trying to turn the tables
‘cause what I‘ve got is what I need
I don‘t need to turn the tables
‘cause I‘ve got what I want
Can you tell
can you tell dusk from dawn?
do you know the difference
between heaven and the sky?
can you tell a cat from a mouse?
do you sometimes wonder
what life is all about?
can you tell love from hate?
are you aware of all the wars
being fought?
can you tell fresh air from pollution?
and what about all our trash
that’s being dumped into the sea?
you say:
‘the world will keep on spinning anyway
no matter what we do
no matter who we are‘
you say:
‘the world will keep on spinning anyway
no matter what we do
or who we ought to be‘
and I say: ‘you’re right in a way
but what will our great-grandchildren say
when they’re drowning in our dirt?‘
what if they made you point out
your friends from your enemies?
would you accept to use their guns?
you say:
‘the world will keep on spinning anyway
no matter what we do
no matter who we are‘
you say:
‘the world will keep on spinning anyway
no matter what we do
or who we ought to be‘
Our big brother
I went for a stroll in town
it actually was more of a walkabout
I didn’t see too many chicks
I didn’t meet any friends
but hey, that’s part of life too
I entered my coffee-bar
started chatting with the waiter
and he told me the news
which I slowly started to believe
the problem is
we can’t do anything about it
it’s all digital
and we’re just the main part
of the experiment
of their experience
‘there’s someone watching
every one of us‘
he didn’t mean God
that was pretty clear
but a six-letter word starting with a G
I guess we can’t
do nothing about it
it’s all digital
and we’re just the main part
‘so you mean‘, I asked
‘they see me picking my nose
on my balcony?‘
‘not just on your balcony, my friend!‘
he added with a grin
I switched to beer
and gave it some thought
I lit a cigarette
and started to cough
wondering if they’d registered that
the problem is
we can’t do anything about it
it’s all digital
and we’re just the main part
of the experiment
of their experience
Passer-by (to Glenn)
our little passer-by
just came by to say hello
little angel
you weren’t meant to say much more
we wonder where you are now
are you aware of that?
are you still around
or are you up there watching over us?
how many friends have you got?
tell me, more than a bunch we guess
or just a couple of close ones?
and are there any lovers around?
dearest passer-by
you couldn’t stay for good
beloved angel
you just dropped by to say hello
we didn’t want you to go
but we had to say goodbye
and now we’re fighting to let go
we’ll always love you, just so you know
our little passer-by
just came by to say hello
little angel
you weren’t meant to say much more
dearest passer-by
you couldn’t stay for good
beloved angel
you just dropped by to say hello
is your new home cosy and warm?
without those earthly struggles and tears?
why don’t you come by for a cup of tea?
we’ll once have to pack our bags as well
and we will join you up there!
you may know when that will be
but first ask your boss to treat you well
we wish you were here
and you still are in a beautiful way
and if you’re really
floating around in those clouds
can you make out the candles
we light for you every day?
we miss you, we love you
Secrets
it’s freezing, but I’m warm
the sun won’t shine today, I’m just happy
thick layers of clouds
but I can see the blue sky
routine is no friend of mine
whenever I grab it, it seems to slip away
I don‘t want to live a boring life
and I wouldn‘t want to be someone else
you might wonder what
the change is all about
but I won’t tell you
because my secrets need to be untold
secrets need to be untold
‘take care and watch where you tread
don’t leave your path, try to stick to it!‘
isn‘t that what we were taught?
today I only believe in
feeling alive with my head up high
you might wonder what
the change is all about
but I won’t tell you
because my secrets need to be untold
secrets need to be untold
Wicked ways
wicked ways
wicked ways, goodbye!
wicked ways, goodbye!
I tore myself apart
gave myself up, free fall
left all the joy aside
tumbled and stumbled ahead
this seemed to stay
from faults to perfect fail
to a scary extent
I couldn’t comprehend
the trust broke like glass
the baulk was there to last
and they’d think
‘how nice, he’s got the perfect disguise’
but now the winds have changed
before I rearranged
and gave up for good
I held on as much as I could
now I’m back for good
I hope it’s understood
the clouds have disappeared
gone are all the funnels I feared
wicked ways, goodbye!
wicked ways, goodbye!
vicious circles, just move on!
wicked ways
wicked ways, goodbye!
vicious circles, just move on!
wicked ways
wicked ways
wicked ways, goodbye!
vicious circles, just move on!
wicked ways, wicked ways, fuck off!
wicked ways
I’m back for good
I’m back for good instead
back for good
back for good instead
back for good
You belong to me
how many times did I try
to write down the words
which exactly match the way
I feel for you today
sometimes I wish it was true
that I had only met you yesterday
it would make a poet out of me
’cause I’d be leaving you anyway
and even if I passed away
those feelings for you wouldn’t fade
away
and even if I pass away
this love for you is meant to stay
I love you
I’m still swimming
in this sweet sea of love
after all this time
and even if I passed away
those feelings for you wouldn’t fade
away
and even if this chapter closed
the story’d be about to unfold
I love you
words can’t express what I feel
so why write a song
if I can’t even tell you straight
how deeply I know where I belong
Embracing the world
I’m embracing the world again
the one that wasn’t here
I’m embracing my world again
the one I hold so dear
I’m embracing the world again
its skies are clear
I’m embracing my world again
to sympathize with my tears
I had my head in the clouds
and my feet were sticking in mud
I felt I was doing okay
dragging myself along the way
I’m embracing the world again
the one that wasn’t around
I’m embracing my world again
the one that accepts my fears as well
I’m embracing the world again
the one that wasn’t here
I’m embracing my world again
the one I hold so dear
I’m embracing the world again
the one that wasn’t here
I’m embracing my world again
the one that accepts my fears
Moon - 2008
There Used To Be A Country
Pretending
Fairy Tale
Numb
Meant to be
In My Shell
Watching You
Yellow Moon
Words are stupid
The House in the Woods
Guilty
The Same Moon
moon
There Used To Be A Country
there used to be a country
a long time ago
which held loads of gold
in its hands
it got bored
by all its value
and thought about a way
to get rid of it
so it sent out letters
to the neighbouring countries
asking them if they were lacking gold
some said yes, some said no and some didn't know
what to say
some said yes, some said no and some didn't say
anything
it's said that our dear little wonderland
gave all the gold away
to the ones who were in need
and to those that just agreed
the story took a turn
and our beloved country
got poor
all at once
and forever
but its people
didn't mind at all
they still had everything
they needed anyhow
there used to be a country
a long time ago
which held loads of gold
in its hands
but no more
but no more
no, not anymore
Pretending
we make love
pretending we care
we look into each others eyes
but all we see isn't there
we laugh day and night
about absurd things we see
days fly by in seconds
it's so easy to think we're free
we're only acting
to live these days like our last
we simply fear
to take off our masks
I put my arms around you
but we don't seem to touch
we'd be happy forever
as long as nonsense made sense
we'd keep on shooting in the black
as if it didn't matter
and it doesn't in fact
what do we share?
what do we share?
what do we have in common anyway?
Fairy Tale
no strings attached
no worries echoing back
no return ticket in my pocket
i don’t intend to go back home
turn your head while i’m turning mine
the roads we’ve walked on we leave behind
we met in a time made for dreams
we turn regrets into pink steam
far away the sticky ground
far away your heavy loads
far away hard times pass by
we’ve found a home on cloud nine
love without storeys and floors
love without bricks and walls
love without ceilings but skies
turn your head while i’m turning mine
the roads we’ve walked on we leave behind
we met in a time made for dreams
no regrets
but to grasp this little fairy tale
read it slowly, read it backwards
before you start you’d better take a deep breath
the happy ending’s first
Numb
i don’t feel too alive
i’m in a numb state of mind
only you can understand
why i messed it up
now i’m walking on thin ice
wondering when it’s gonna break
i’d better turn around and slide back to you
at least to see that it’s too late
you’re still standing at the lakeshore
following my dizzy moves
the sun makes the surface crack
the second chance
left with the past
i would accept a third
and make it last
you’re still standing at the lakeshore
following my dizzy moves
the sun makes the surface crack
take your sense of humour and your smile
your soft hands, your bright shining eyes
neatly wrap them up
and send them my way
as long as the cold remains
Meant To Be
was it meant to be
to spend only this one night with you
you left this city for good
leaving me here with sore lips and your perfume
your cigarette’s still burning between my fingers
the plane took off just minutes ago
thick, fat raindrops trying to kill the glow
and i’m fighting to resist the cold
i may be standing here for days
while you’re leaving your old ways
our precious secret got cut in half
when you were waving goodbye
and if it’s god’s will that i’ll forget
the taste of your skin last night
i’m sure he’ll manage to put
the exact same spell on you as well
it won’t happen before i die
we won’t see each other’s eyes again
but why cry at the sky now
while rich memories still remain
i may be standing here for days
while you’re leaving your old ways
our precious secret got cut in half
when you were waving goodbye
and if it’s god’s will that i’ll forget
the taste of your skin last night
i’m sure he’ll manage to put
the exact same spell on you as well
In My Shell
the walls are built around me
and everyone is here
actors, singers, stars
the party’s host is me
i’ve got bands and pimps
gamblers, whores and shrimps
the biggest moulin rouge
you can ever think of
i own houses, cars and girls
i’ve got all the luxury in the world
all my wishes have come true
isn’t it fun being around me?
it’s happening here
in my shell
it’s happening
dearest friends
if all this turns out to be a bore
give me a minute
and i’ll be back with crime and war
i’ve got murder in all sorts of ways
slaughter, torture, slavery and rape
i beg your pardon?
what about love?
it’s happening here
in my shell
it’s happening
Watching You
you don’t know that i’m watching you
since you’ve shown up
i hope it will stay that way
just for a little while
you don’t seem to know
how stunning you look tonight
i keep on dreaming about you
as long as you’re around
do i need to kidnap you
to let you enter my world?
or will you return my look
or leave me gawping for tonight?
i’m not the type to buy you diamond rings
and i’m not a saint but for you i would pray
i’m not the one to buy you diamond rings
you shine much more than stone anyway
if you could see yourself
protecting all your mysteries
if i were you
i’d do it just the same
if you could see me now
you couldn’t help but laugh at me
a baffled stranger
rooted to the spot
i can feel your burning core
and your weeping heart
i’m the one for you
oh my god, she’s turning around
looking straight at me
tell me what to do now!
what am i going to do now?
what shall i do now?
i’m not the type to buy you diamond rings
and i’m not a saint but for you i would pray
i’m not the one to buy you diamond rings
you shine much more than stone anyway
Yellow Moon
she says goodbye to the yellow moon
she turns around and moves
slowly towards the entrance
of a different space in time
her picture changes colours
red to blue and green to black
her frames will remain golden
only to trick our minds
no one knew her to that day
she left without a sign
where she’s travelling to
stays her secret
a car crash in winter
the snow looks dirty
the roads are covered with ice
they couldn’t get her out alive
the picture changes colours
red to blue and green to black
the frames will remain golden
only to trick our minds
Words are stupid
i didn’t mean it that way
baby, please don’t go away
believe me i want you to stay
i hope you won’t walk away
words are stupid
those phoney bastards
cling to my mouth
they keep intruding
like maggots and worms
words are stupid
i didn’t want to send you away
oh how i wish i could pray
to prevent you from running away
darling, i need you to stay
words are stupid
yes, they are
gluey and gleeful
greedy and mean
stingy and pernisious
words are stupid
who do they think they are?
words are stupid
The House in the Woods
there’s a house in the woods
not many know it exists
i’m glad to know people who do
they say if they choose you
you won’t fail to walk by
your instincts won’t lead you astray
when you enter the lobby
someone pretty and nice
will show you the house and your room
it’s just an ordinary house
with ordinary people
instantly it feels like home
on the front page
of their colourful brochure
a crash-course in happiness
if you’re wealthy and willing
to stay here for a while
they suggest you to take it real slowly
of course i’m too impatient
so I pick crash-course 1
i can’t afford to live here too long
the next day when I start
they start smiling and say
’careful, you might feel a bit sick on the way’
i don’t care just go ahead
and give me that pill
what makes me sick
is in the bag i’ve taken along
but as usual i wake up
scratching my head
i think they’ve put a smile on my face
Guilty
he’s still sitting in the kitchen
unconciously moving his cigarette
to the ashtray and back to his lips
he’s watching the smoke eat up the air
he knows he shouldn’t have driven on
after the car had hit the kid
if he had stopped and walked back
he would’ve faced the fact
the sound of breaking bones
the smashing window
the scared look in her eyes
or was it a boy?
he quickly looked back
and he wanted to stop
he was quite sure he’d killed the kid
but his foot kept pushing down
but his foot kept pushing down
he drove on and on and on
fourty minutes lasting like a day
he made it home, parked the car
closed the door and felt blood on his hands
the sound of breaking bones
the smashing window
the scared look in her eyes
or was it a boy?
The Same Moon
back there are the special ones
over here the weak
behind me i see some heroes
opposite me the freaks
soon i may greet some strange ones
yesterday i met a queen
two days ago i got cursed
by a lad with too much self-esteem
but everyone of us after all
if short or fat or tall
looks at the same moon hanging there
above us all in the air
there are some guys
who are chronically nice
and there are the ones
who always start a fight
some people have become loony
more than a few like going to extremes
a bunch of us seems to struggle
others easily fulfill their dreams
but everyone of us after all
if short or fat or tall
looks at the same moon hanging there
above us all in the air
Five Blue - 2005
five blue (2005)
Did you know
Illusion
Be free
Where have you gone
five blue
Did you know
did you know
that I suffered the whole time with you
did you know
that I tried to deny all the fights
but the nights made my addiction to you linger on
do you know
I still miss all that which made it real
do you know
that my heart is still burning for you
but it seems the ashes will soon be blown away
once in a while when we meet on the street
before we start the usual small-talk
I see a spark flaring up in your eyes
from the life we used to share
I sometimes felt pretty betrayed
even when I let you drown in silence
I learned that love hides a portion of hate,
greed, sweet pain and fate
I want you to come back
and I know that you won't
come back, back, back
no, you will not come back to me
after a time when I've gone bald
and your beautiful hair has turned to grey
we might be wise enough
to appreciate the magic of those days
illusion
risk it, you might regret it
play with fire but be sure to touch it
the great escape is an illusion
do you think it's the only solution?
why leave all this to the past?
cutting all the bonds which would survive
stretching your limits till they're gone
that ain't how I function my friend
why do you think it's all an illusion?
why are you so sure it's meaningless?
your constant complaints 'bout our constitution
are we rusty screws in the machine?
now you're about to commit
you're old enough to decide on it
but still too young to get the meaning of this fight, boy
don't tell me later that I was right
be free
you're like an addiction to me
like smoking it seems to be
as soon as I light up a cigarette
I'm longing for the next
I finally wanna get rid
of being a junkie of nicotine
I'm addicted to you
I wanna be free
more than smoking once in a while
I need to share hours with you
but why not just meet when we feel like it?
I'm trying to be free
I wanna be free
leave me alone
get off the phone
and leave me alone
let me be
let me be free
to compare you to a smoke
is not what I wanna say
I'm close to being ashamed
of this thought of mine
but girl, seeing you so often
is like smoking too much
it gives me a headache
I'm getting used to your touch
it feels like being stuck in a golden cage
like being wounded, like losing my spirits
like being tied-up on a desert island
I'm almost drowning
I wanna be free
leave me alone
girl, I'm almost grown
I wanna be free
let me be free
oh, just let me be free
oh, can't you see
that I need to be free
let me be free
I wanna be free
oh, leave me alone
where have you gone
you were the one who made me feel
loved and cared for, you treated it as real
believe me it didn't just occur to me
that you're the only one for me
the nights we spent together
I didn't want the dawn to come
I wish you were here now, right by my side
the fire used to burn within me
it's still burning but now it feels so cold
I'm so afraid the flame will die out
why did you leave me
without even saying goodbye
you only looked deeply into my eyes, and off you went
I can't get to sleep during the night
in the day I walk around, searching
knowing that I won't find you anymore, anywhere